Being a Type A person has both its advantages and disadvantages and if you are a Type A person then you know what I mean. Being proactive, organized, ambitious, and conscious of time management are all positive attributes of a Type A person. However, Type A people also tend to be sensitive, anxious, and impatient, so you can imagine that when life throws its daily struggles into the mix, things can get a little hairy.
If you are an enneagram person, I am a 3 wing 2. I fear failing. I fear being unworthy of love and acceptance. I desire to be admired and accepted. I want to be in control (which is also the choleric personality in me). HOWEVER, the year 2020 is truly teaching me that I AM NOT IN CONTROL!!!
Does anyone else feel like they are drowning at times? The uncertainty of what school will look like in the fall, the waiting for my husband to finish police academy, the fear of him becoming a police officer, waiting to see if our “Little Red” will be accepted into a new school BEFORE school starts back, the new normal of wearing masks and sanitizing/washing 10,000 times a day is all so overwhelming.
I am reminded though of God’s faithfulness and promises that are repeated over and over again…
2 Timothy 1:7…“for God gave us a spirit not of fear but of power and love and self-control.”
Lamentations 3:22-23…“The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases; his mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is your faithfulness.”
2 Thessalonians 3:3…“But the Lord is faithful. He will establish you and guard you against the evil one.”
I’m not in control AND THAT IS OK because I have a personal relationship with the one that is.